Love in a dream

Love in a dream

I’m sleeping.

I’m hiding from the world, so filled with darkness,
Tying to keep on fighting, but it isn’t easy.
I’m fighting for surviving, for friends and love!

So many people try to tell me,
how to go on, and how to let go.
I won’t let go, until I have real love.

I want to live in my love dreams,
the places where I was together with this so beautiful girl,
a girl who made me feel, that I was in love.

She showed me, the meaning of life.
She gave me love, tears and she showed me fear.
She was the one, who cared for me.

It was like; it had to be us forever,
I felt, that we were so happy? Weren’t we?
And yes, we were really glad for each other and happy!

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The day came, where I asked her out.
Out to a very special place, that I know, and a place that I love.
It’s a romantic place, up high in the mountains.

We where sitting on a restaurant, waiting.
I couldn’t get my eyes of her smile,
her nice hair, the beautiful eyes, and her body which were shining..

After the dinner, I took her hand,
Come; let me show you something I said.
And we walk for 5 minutes to this special place, that I love.

The sun was going down, the view was so beautiful, and the weather perfect.
It was summer, and a nice temperature.
Everything was so perfect, and so, I did what I wanted to do.

I asked you,
Would you marry me?
The answer was; …

After a while where she hadn't answert, she finaly began to answer me slowly):

“I don’t feel the same thing you do,
I don’t love you the way you love me,
I can’t tell you why, I’m so sorry, ..goodbye”

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I looked deep into her eyes - I was not crying,
no, I had lost my heart in this moment?
Why, I asked? Why? I love you so much.

I was like she has stolen my heart,
and she had throw it down to the river in the valley
I was so heartless in those moments.

She looked down in the ground.
Couldn’t explain, couldn’t find words.
It was like she was leaving my world?

Now she looked at me, her eyes, I saw tears.
She was crying. I always have loved you baby, but there is a but, which change everything.
It’s just that "but" – that this is your dream, and its not real.

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I don’t know how to tell, what I felt those nights.
It is like, that they always will hunt me.
Always will live in my heart and my dreams.

Couldn’t find you in my dreams anymore,
You had broken my heart with your words.
The picture of you - had gone.

She was everything to me, that I ever,
ever have searched for, in my love life.
I will never find someone I can love this high again.

This is why I still carry for her, still dream of her.
Still need her, still want her, still search for her.
But, that day is past now?

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I’m now awake again.

And now I’m sitting at my window,
What to do now? You are gone but I still need and love you.
I feel like a fool, course nothing is right anymore.

Why did you say those things, and why is it so correct what you said?
Why, do I always make the wrong quistions? - I miss you.
"But", it will never be the same again.

The dream was so real..