How is your conscience?

Thought I was always in control,
but you caught me unprepared
Now it’s a whole new world,
and I admit I am truly scared.

What happened between us,
this is not how you said it would be.
Why can’t I stop loving you,
what the fuck is wrong with me?

I’m afraid to believe the signs,
was it all just lies and fake?
All that is left of me now,
is only what you didn’t take.

You broke something inside me,
I doubt it can be repaired.
When I look back now,
I wonder if you even cared.

Did you ever stop to think,
how it made me feel.
When you were grinding my heart,
underneath your boot heel.

You promised me we’d be together,
and I wanted it to be true.
Then you changed your mind,
left me alone to get over you.

Guess you convinced me,
you made me start dreaming.
All of a sudden you were gone,
it was me you were leaving.

I never thought I’d doubt you,
having the thoughts I now do.
But I can’t help wondering,
am I better off without you?

You were always asking me;
“honey where is your patience?”
I guess I could ask you now,
baby how is your conscience?