A simple apology

Your eyes I´ll never forget,
scared and full of tears.
First time it dawned on me,
the source of all your fears.

I never had imagined,
that source could be me.
But seeing you so frightened,
it made me want to flee.

Had I lived for a millenium,
I never meant to hurt you.
The reason I kept trying,
was to show my love was true.

Your words hurt me so deep,
I felt like a caged animal.
Kept looking for a way out,
I know my struggle got frantical.

The only solution that I saw,
was to repay the things you did.
So I closed my heart to you,
and said the things I said.

I know time will never erase,
the things I said in past tense.
If I meant it or not,
does it really make a difference?

I know my deep felt regrets,
will never suffice.
For the pain I caused to you,
I can never apologize.

If you could only see me now,
I´m on my back and all alone.
My only hope is that you know,
for all my sins I try to atone.