My life as it is right now

Things have to change
no matter what you do
no matter how hard you fight...
it always seems like nothing will work

like the changes the day and the night
you fight, and they crawl upon you
and they are not there to pleace you

it comes in during the day
you just feel like thats the way you want it to be and stay
when the day has ended the firs moon rays shows up, everything has changed
but keep on fighting, couse the lighs will return once more...
then the night suddenly disapears... it not to belive...

but mistakes are actualy to forgive

i dont want you to go
go it has bin written
this here poem won´t stand a chance against the walls of your skin
but i hope it will make it more soft, like a fluffy dune

now i stand, calling on you i am
couse my hart is filled with fear
all the tears that we cried
in all our lives
as we saile on lake of tears

this was doomed to fail
right from the beginning
love has gone and love has come
but soon i feel like pressing the trigger
cant take it, i newer will either

but i stay in my dark abyss
here where i belong, and this time i wont leave
i will answer a call, i surdenly will, but just this paine
i never try to kill.
im here to stay...
but not you... dont you ever go away...
dont leave me here, dont walk throug the door... couse i cant take it, no more
i wont live, its the pain of my life, just as hard as you try to get to i
i will always try to imagine you by my side, and never again... never no more