Dont know what to call this feeling

Im so lost, I dont know what to do !
Do you know that feeling ?
I feel so empty, like i dont know what to say to you anymore..
I loved you and I still do..

But it feels like I have to let you go.. Letting you go is the hardests thing I ever had think of. Dont know how to let the thought go away. I try to give you my self, but still it seems that we just dont fit together, no matter what I do.. I just want you & I to fit together... But I have to be strong.. Maybe one time we can be together, I dont know.. wish I could make you stay, I know you want me and still wanna be here, but its so dam hard. Cause I can talk with you about my feelings... You just broke up with me 7 days ago, you asked for me to forgive you and so I did... But I cant forget how deep you hurted me, and I am still hurt.. I cant just forget..

I trusted you of all my heart, I would give my self to you forever, but suddenly you pushed me away! I thougth we were so close, but I guess I thougth wrong.. it hurts deep inside..

I dont understand how you could do it, and then return. I dont know why I forgave you cause it still hurts so bad. And it hurts more knowing that it feels like you dont care.. I wanna feel that you care .. I know you say I love you, but it aint enough with words, there needs to be some action to.. sometimes theres action, and sometimes not.. love have to be taking care of every day, every minute, every second... but you dont know it..
I wanna feel speciel...

Its the hardest part to letting you go.. you should see my tears ..