Why do i feel this need?

damn boy tell me what should i do,
im so in love, but still not over you.
when im with him i dont wanna lie,
but without you Im so close to die.
I love him so much, hes everything for me,
but i keep wondering, is this supposed to be?
is this really where im gonna be forever,
am i never gonna see you again not ever?
are you really not dreaming of me every night,
like i dream of you holding me tight.
dont you think of me every single day,
you never call of txt me, dont you have anything to say?
im i really the only person here whos so fucked up,
that when i start writing i dont know when to stop.
cause i always have something to say, always keep trying,
why dont you answer me? it feels like im dying.
i just wanna know why, why dont you love me to?
damn boy, tell me now, am i in love with you??