Mistakes

You were my little innocent pill,
You had an amazing gift – an admirable skill.
A skill to make me feel complete,
You told me, that it isn’t a sin to be weak
But nobody can or will change my sight at this;
It’s a sin – And if you don’t believe me, I can’t help being rebellious
(I’m sorry)

First of all I have to admit my mistakes,
No matter what it takes!
I’ve made many, I won’t deny that,
Or else, my conscience will turn bad.

I want to be beautiful and attractive,
Make the guys follow me like they’re addictive.
And deep inside me I know it’s a possibility,
A chance and an opportunity to be free.

So give me my lovedrug,
Then I might be able to see trough the fog.
‘Cause with the little innocent pill called Ecstasy,
I’ll be the person I want to be.

You were my little innocent pill,
You had an amazing gift – an admirable skill.
A skill to make me feel complete,
You told me, that it isn’t a sin to be weak
But nobody can or will change my sight at this;
It’s a sin – And if you don’t believe me, I can’t help being rebellious
(I’m sorry)

Now that my ignorance and happiness has disappeared,
I see the scary faces I have feared.
Mummy, I’m scared – they won’t go away,
Now I see the price I have to pay.

I’d spoken words I never thought would cross my lips,
Would you please alleviate my guilt – it might drown the eclipse
I wish it was an option – but I’m unchangeable
That’s how God made me - and if you try to change that – you’d be unforgivable!

My shell is tough – almost unbreakable
But my interior is vulnerable
A kiss and I’ll surrender – waiting, to be left in the pouring rain
Please - stab my back, and free me from this pain.

Why didn’t you do it? You were so close!
You didn’t have the guts, I suppose.
I saw your shadow – you shivered like hell,
I guess you never wanted to watch me fell.
(But someday you have to – I’m sorry)