What a feeling

I feel so badly sorry for what I did to you. I lied to you and now I feel I just have no more feelings to you. I could say that I felt love when you where near me now. I just feel I completely lost the feeling of your love. So dear Michael sorry but I really can't lie to you anymore. I can't keep on like this even your far away from me and we can't see just talk to each other no more else. I really don't want to disappoint you. Because when I'm with you, I'm a different person when. When I'm not with you, I am a different person too. So different like a heartless person. Sorry...