Indescribable feelings 

Dangerous love, could such feeling exist?
Sitting in the dark, silent crying, could I trust her?
An urgent scream of anger and helplessness, slips my throat.

Never felt better, never felt worse, can I keep up fighting?
I want to fight fiercely, but have no energy.
Kept up for 10 months. Was it worth it? Was it insignificant?

Falling down in this bottomless gap of desperation.
Just hoping that I will hit the bottom. Just hoping to disappear.
Echoes of pain, my body shivers. There is no return