Don't know how

Don’t know how

These feelings
This pain
This fustration

I haven’t learnt
How to handle these things
No one ever told me
That something could break into pieces
So fast

The distance between
Love and hate
Are so short

I’m afraid of
The effects of these feelings
It have maked me so cold
No emotions
But now
The unforgotten emotions
Are begging to breathe

I wont let them
I want to strangle them
Kill them
Like they want to kill me

But

I’m suddenly started
running
escaping
crying
expressing
myself
it seems that it’s
a battle I can’t win
I can’t prevent them
breathing

I didn’t know I had these feelings
But they have come to show
And I just want to DIE

Everytime the tears drops down
I feel so weak
Without any thoughts
I can’t breath
I’m dying inside when
These emotions
Express themselves
Using my body

And with the tears there is
Sympathy
There’s Nothing more useless
Show me how to make them go away
Not how to cry more
to get your attention

I want to
Breath
Laugh
Walk
Talk
Like I used to
Like we used to

I know that I’m
the only one with answers
to my problems
And it’s only me
Who can make it go away
I just have to find
The right way to escape
These feelings

Everything has changed
And no one seems to care
“It’s just the way it goes,
you have to accept it, live with it”
But I don’t want to live with it
I don’t want to accept it
I don’t want it to go that way
I want to pick my own way

People think that they know
Everything
But they don’t know
Anything

I don’t think that it’s my fault
I don’t feel guilt
I don’t want to talk about it all the time
I don’t want your sympathy
I don’t want your help


At first I wanted A hole
So I could dissapear
in the time everything was
confusing
and come back when I was ready
to live normally again

But now

Give me a magic-pill
Something that can
take all the pain away

I’m begging to scream

Don’t be afraid
I don’t want to die
I just want to live
Without this constant pain
inside